Last Three Weeks

It hasn't been too bad for the last three weeks.. surprisingly and seriously.. True, I was kind of pre-occupied with stuff but emotionally I've been stable.

She came here at the start of August and stayed for two weeks. She reached late on Friday night and called me the next day. I was talking to her on phone after whole 2 months. I was not overwhelmed, neither was she. We kept it civil, talked about general stuff.

The next day she asked me out for coffee in the evening. It was nice to see her again.. She hugged me when she saw me.. We talked for a long time. It made me smile to see that her habits are still the same. Her favourite coffee, still the same.. Latte - half strength, decaf, with trimmed milk. And she still remembers my Mocha. Her indecisiveness about all the things.. it's still there.. We kept talking and it was almost dinnertime. She asked me to stay for dinner too. I did and we kept talking.

Somehow both of us followed an unwritten rule of not talking about relationships. We kept that subject out of our conversations.

During those two weeks we kept calling each other frequently and seeing each other whenever we could. I gave her a gift for her birthday in next month, and she was pleasantly, genuinely surprised. She liked it. I was happy.

I was talking to her one day and I told her that I was not feeling like going to work the next day and I might take a sick leave. She unexpectedly asked me to spend the day with her then. So the next day I took a sick leave and went to her place. We took her dog for a walk. Then she cooked lunch for me.. This was something she has wanted to do for a long time, since the time when we were together.. and finally she got a chance to do it now... Then we sat around talking for some time. Went to play tennis in the evening, had a drink after that and then she dropped me home.

We had our biggest fight till date on the next day... It started off with something trivial and it got escalated. Both of us said nasty things to each other. And finally she said, "see.. this is why it is not going to work out between us.." I could not find a proper response to it.. I tried to say that it's not true.. but that was the end of discussion.. I let it go..

She invited me for a dinner with her friends later that week. This is another thing she has wanted to do for quite some time.. introduce me to her close ones.. That she did.. I had to endure a few awkward questions at the time of introduction, like 'oh.. so YOU are the boyfriend!'.. I said no, that's not me.. That night she was wearing a jacket two of us had bought together long back.. and also the scarf.. my gift.. she specifically showed it to me.. Those looked good on her.. Again, it made me smile.. At the end of the night, she gave me a hug and her friends were like "That's a real 'friendly' hug.. we can see that.." Anyway I let it go again.. But I did feel sad to see her leave..

After she went back, she kept to herself for a couple of days but then resumed contact again.. I was alright with this the whole time.. I think I've really gotten over her now.. Probably the worst is over and I can get on with my life again...